{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Memories","provider_url":"https:\/\/memories.cafeblog.hu","author_name":"AudreyCondemned","author_url":"https:\/\/memories.cafeblog.hu\/author\/AudreyCondemned-2\/","title":"Things I'll never say..","html":"<!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>  <w:WordDocument>   <w:View>Normal<\/w:View>   <w:Zoom>0<\/w:Zoom>   <w:HyphenationZone>21<\/w:HyphenationZone>   <w:DoNotOptimizeForBrowser\/>  <\/w:WordDocument> <\/xml><![endif]--><p style=\"text-align: center;\"><style> <!--  \/* Style Definitions *\/ p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal \t{mso-style-parent:\"\"; \tmargin:0cm; \tmargin-bottom:.0001pt; \tmso-pagination:widow-orphan; \tfont-size:12.0pt; \tfont-family:\"Times New Roman\"; \tmso-fareast-font-family:\"Times New Roman\";} p.MsoBodyTextIndent, li.MsoBodyTextIndent, div.MsoBodyTextIndent \t{margin:0cm; \tmargin-bottom:.0001pt; \ttext-indent:35.4pt; \tmso-pagination:widow-orphan; \tfont-size:12.0pt; \tfont-family:\"Times New Roman\"; \tmso-fareast-font-family:\"Times New Roman\";} @page Section1 \t{size:612.0pt 792.0pt; \tmargin:70.85pt 70.85pt 70.85pt 70.85pt; \tmso-header-margin:35.4pt; \tmso-footer-margin:35.4pt; \tmso-paper-source:0;} div.Section1 \t{page:Section1;} --> <\/style>  <\/p><p class=\"MsoNormal\"><span style=\"\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><img style=\"width: 479px; height: 261px;\" src=\"https:\/\/memories.cafeblog.hu\/files\/new\/_o__Things_I__ll_Never_Say_by_lyrical_stray.jpg\" class=\"blogkep\" align=\"center\"><\/p><p><\/p><p><link rel=\"File-List\" href=\"file:\/\/\/C:\/DOCUME%7E1\/David\/LOCALS%7E1\/Temp\/msoclip1\/01\/clip_filelist.xml\"><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>  <w:WordDocument>   <w:View>Normal<\/w:View>   <w:Zoom>0<\/w:Zoom>   <w:HyphenationZone>21<\/w:HyphenationZone>   <w:DoNotOptimizeForBrowser\/>  <\/w:WordDocument> <\/xml><![endif]--><style> <!--  \/* Style Definitions *\/ p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal \t{mso-style-parent:\"\"; \tmargin:0cm; \tmargin-bottom:.0001pt; \tmso-pagination:widow-orphan; \tfont-size:12.0pt; \tfont-family:\"Times New Roman\"; \tmso-fareast-font-family:\"Times New Roman\";} p.MsoBodyTextIndent, li.MsoBodyTextIndent, div.MsoBodyTextIndent \t{margin:0cm; \tmargin-bottom:.0001pt; \ttext-indent:35.4pt; \tmso-pagination:widow-orphan; \tfont-size:12.0pt; \tfont-family:\"Times New Roman\"; \tmso-fareast-font-family:\"Times New Roman\";} @page Section1 \t{size:612.0pt 792.0pt; \tmargin:70.85pt 70.85pt 70.85pt 70.85pt; \tmso-header-margin:35.4pt; \tmso-footer-margin:35.4pt; \tmso-paper-source:0;} div.Section1 \t{page:Section1;} --> <\/style>  <\/p><p class=\"MsoNormal\"><span style=\"\"><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102);\"><span style=\"font-family: Arial;\"><span style=\"font-size: 13px;\"><\/span><span style=\"font-size: 13px;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;<\/span><\/span><span style=\"font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><\/span><\/span><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">Jajjjj neeeeeeeeeee m\u00e1r megint??? Ne m\u00e1r.. Nem k\u00e9stem el ezzel egy kicsit?? Pont az utols\u00f3 2 h\u00f3napban kell mindent a feje tetej\u00e9re \u00e1ll\u00edtanom?? Mi ez? Pont mikor kezdtem m\u00e1r \u00f6r\u00fclni, felejteni, t\u00fall\u00e9pni, lez\u00e1rni, fogja mag\u00e1t egy k\u00f3sza gondolatfoszl\u00e1ny, \u00e9s szemtelen\u00fcl bek\u00faszik a mindennapjaimba. Ki adott neki r\u00e1 enged\u00e9lyt? Mi\u00e9rt pont most? Mikor m\u00e1r semmi \u00e9rtelme? Mi\u00e9rt esek egyik g\u00f6d\u00f6rb\u0151l a m\u00e1sikba, \u00e9pp csak sugarakat kapva a napf\u00e9nyb\u0151l? <\/span><\/p><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">  <\/span><p class=\"MsoNormal\"><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">Nem akarom el\u00f6lr\u0151l kezdeni.. V\u00e9gk\u00e9pp nem valaki olyannal, akivel m\u00e9g annyi es\u00e9lye sincs a k\u00f6z\u00f6s j\u00f6v\u0151nek, mint az el\u0151z\u0151 vadbarommal (de \u0151 legal\u00e1bb elment kuty\u00e1t p\u00e1tyolgatni, csak nehogy el tal\u00e1ljam \u00fctni a kis bolh\u00e1st valamikor k\u00e9tkerek\u0171vel). Mi\u00e9rt most kell elkezdenem kombin\u00e1lni, mikor mire letiszt\u00e1z\u00f3dik bennem, hogy akarom-e vagy sem, m\u00e1r nem lesz lehet\u0151s\u00e9gem a d\u00f6nt\u0151 l\u00e9p\u00e9sre? <\/span><\/p><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">  <\/span><p class=\"MsoNormal\"><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">M\u00e1r annyira elegem van.. Bek\u00faszik valakinek az arck\u00e9pe a gondolataimba, aki addig sosem volt t\u00f6bb egy ismer\u0151sn\u00e9l, csak mert kedvesebb velem a szok\u00e1sosn\u00e1l, amir\u0151l tudom, hogy puszt\u00e1n h\u00fcly\u00fcl\u00e9s, m\u00e9gis t\u00f6bbet k\u00e9pzelek m\u00f6g\u00e9. Sz\u00e1nalmas. SZ\u00c1NALMAS!!! Hiszen m\u00e1ssal is ilyen k\u00f6zvetlen, mi\u00e9rt pont engem p\u00e9c\u00e9zne ki mag\u00e1nak? Engem, akinek m\u00e9g egy \u201el\u00fazerb\u0151l\u201d se siker\u00fclt \u00e9rz\u00e9seket kicsalnom, majd egy nagymen\u0151b\u0151l igen? J\u00f3 vicc. <\/span><\/p><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">  <\/span><p class=\"MsoNormal\"><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">Azt\u00e1n m\u00e1r nemcsak nappal kalandozik el fel\u00e9 a figyelmem, hanem \u00e1lmaimban is.. Ami m\u00e9g rosszabb. A gondolataimat elterelhetem, de az \u00e1lmaim el\u0151l hova b\u00fajjak? Hol keressek mened\u00e9ket, mikor a hely, ahol elvileg nyugalmat keresek, gal\u00e1dul el\u00e1rul, \u00e9s csak m\u00e9g t\u00f6bb fejt\u00f6r\u00e9st okoz?<\/span><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">&nbsp; <\/span><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">\u00c9s m\u00e1r azt is tudom, mi lesz a folytat\u00e1s: el\u0151sz\u00f6r csak lopva k\u00eds\u00e9rem figyelemmel a mozdulatait, f\u00e9l f\u00fcllel mindig az \u0151 hangj\u00e1t figyelem, \u00e9s n\u00e9h\u00e1ny h\u00e9ten bel\u00fcl menthetetlen\u00fcl elveszek a pl\u00e1t\u00f3i szerelem s\u00f6t\u00e9tj\u00e9ben. F\u00e9nyes kil\u00e1t\u00e1sok. Pont akkorra, mikor a legjobban sz\u00fcks\u00e9gem lesz az agyam teljes kapacit\u00e1s\u00e1ra, t\u00e9telek helyett holmi \u00e1br\u00e1ndoz\u00e1sok fogj\u00e1k kit\u00f6lteni. Marha j\u00f3 vagyok, mit ne mondjak. <\/span><\/p><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">  <\/span><p class=\"MsoBodyTextIndent\"><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">\u00c9s ism\u00e9t az \u00edr\u00e1sba fogok menek\u00fclni. Megint csak n\u00f6velni fogom az \u00e9rtelmetlen bet\u0171k sz\u00e1m\u00e1t, a szavak\u00e9t, melyeket sosem fogok elmondani.. <\/span><\/p><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">  <\/span><p><\/p><div style=\"text-align: right;\"><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">  <\/span><span style=\"font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;\"><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">\/2009.03.06. 09<\/span><sup><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">12<\/span><\/sup><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial;\"><\/span><\/span><span style=\"font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;; font-style: italic;\"><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 102, 102); font-family: Arial; font-size: 13px;\">\/<\/span><\/span><span style=\"font-size: 12pt; font-family: &quot;Times New Roman&quot;;\"><\/span><\/div>","type":"rich"}