{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Memories","provider_url":"https:\/\/memories.cafeblog.hu","author_name":"AudreyCondemned","author_url":"https:\/\/memories.cafeblog.hu\/author\/AudreyCondemned-2\/","title":"Fang-addiction","html":"<p style=\"font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;\"><span style=\"color: rgb(128, 0, 51);\"><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0);\"><span style=\"font-family: Times New Roman;\"><\/span><span style=\"font-family: Times New Roman;\">&nbsp;<\/span><\/span><\/span><link rel=\"File-List\" href=\"file:\/\/\/C:%5CUsers%5CAUDREY%7E1%5CAppData%5CLocal%5CTemp%5Cmsohtml1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml\"><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>  <w:WordDocument>   <w:View>Normal<\/w:View>   <w:Zoom>0<\/w:Zoom>   <w:HyphenationZone>21<\/w:HyphenationZone>   <w:PunctuationKerning\/>   <w:ValidateAgainstSchemas\/>   <w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>false<\/w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>   <w:IgnoreMixedContent>false<\/w:IgnoreMixedContent>   <w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>false<\/w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>   <w:Compatibility>    <w:BreakWrappedTables\/>    <w:SnapToGridInCell\/>    <w:WrapTextWithPunct\/>    <w:UseAsianBreakRules\/>    <w:DontGrowAutofit\/>   <\/w:Compatibility>   <w:BrowserLevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4<\/w:BrowserLevel>  <\/w:WordDocument> <\/xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>  <w:LatentStyles DefLockedState=\"false\" LatentStyleCount=\"156\">  <\/w:LatentStyles> <\/xml><![endif]--><style><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-family: Times New Roman;\"> <!--  \/* Style Definitions *\/  p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal \t{mso-style-parent:\"\"; \tmargin:0cm; \tmargin-bottom:.0001pt; \tmso-pagination:widow-orphan; \tfont-size:12.0pt; \tfont-family:\"Times New Roman\"; \tmso-fareast-font-family:\"Times New Roman\";} @page Section1 \t{size:595.3pt 841.9pt; \tmargin:70.85pt 70.85pt 70.85pt 70.85pt; \tmso-header-margin:35.4pt; \tmso-footer-margin:35.4pt; \tmso-paper-source:0;} div.Section1 \t{page:Section1;} --> <\/span><\/style><!--[if gte mso 10]> <style>  \/* Style Definitions *\/  table.MsoNormalTable \t{mso-style-name:\"Norm\u00e1l t\u00e1bl\u00e1zat\"; \tmso-tstyle-rowband-size:0; \tmso-tstyle-colband-size:0; \tmso-style-noshow:yes; \tmso-style-parent:\"\"; \tmso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt; \tmso-para-margin:0cm; \tmso-para-margin-bottom:.0001pt; \tmso-pagination:widow-orphan; \tfont-size:10.0pt; \tfont-family:\"Times New Roman\"; \tmso-ansi-language:#0400; \tmso-fareast-language:#0400; \tmso-bidi-language:#0400;} <\/style> <![endif]--><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-family: Times New Roman;\">  <\/span><\/p><p style=\"font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;\" class=\"MsoNormal\"><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-family: Times New Roman;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-family: Times New Roman;\">N\u00e9ha olyan j\u00f3 lenne v\u00e1mp\u00edrnak lenni. 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A megnyugtat\u00e1st, hogy nem az\u00e9rt nem tal\u00e1lom a helyem, mert korcs vagyok, hanem mert nem erre a vil\u00e1gra sz\u00fclettem.<\/span><\/p><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; font-family: Times New Roman;\">  <\/span><p style=\"font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;\" class=\"MsoNormal\"><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-family: Times New Roman;\">&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp;&nbsp; <\/span><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-family: Times New Roman;\">Teremt\u0151m... merre vagy?<\/span><\/p><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; font-family: Times New Roman;\">  <\/span><p style=\"font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;\" class=\"MsoNormal\"><o:p><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-family: Times New Roman;\">&nbsp;<\/span><\/o:p><\/p><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-weight: bold; font-style: italic; font-family: Times New Roman;\">  <\/span><p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"text-align: right; font-weight: bold; font-style: italic;\" align=\"right\"><span style=\"color: rgb(153, 0, 0); font-family: Times New Roman;\">\/2009.11.19. 00:26\/<\/span><\/p>  <p><\/p>","type":"rich"}