{"version":"1.0","provider_name":"Memories","provider_url":"https:\/\/memories.cafeblog.hu","author_name":"AudreyCondemned","author_url":"https:\/\/memories.cafeblog.hu\/author\/AudreyCondemned-2\/","title":"Speechless","html":"<meta http-equiv=\"Content-Type\" content=\"text\/html; charset=utf-8\"><meta name=\"ProgId\" content=\"Word.Document\"><meta name=\"Generator\" content=\"Microsoft Word 11\"><meta name=\"Originator\" content=\"Microsoft Word 11\"><link rel=\"File-List\" href=\"file:\/\/\/C:%5CUsers%5CAUDREY%7E1%5CAppData%5CLocal%5CTemp%5Cmsohtml1%5C01%5Cclip_filelist.xml\"><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>\n <w:WordDocument>\n  <w:View>Normal<\/w:View>\n  <w:Zoom>0<\/w:Zoom>\n  <w:HyphenationZone>21<\/w:HyphenationZone>\n  <w:PunctuationKerning\/>\n  <w:ValidateAgainstSchemas\/>\n  <w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>false<\/w:SaveIfXMLInvalid>\n  <w:IgnoreMixedContent>false<\/w:IgnoreMixedContent>\n  <w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>false<\/w:AlwaysShowPlaceholderText>\n  <w:Compatibility>\n   <w:BreakWrappedTables\/>\n   <w:SnapToGridInCell\/>\n   <w:WrapTextWithPunct\/>\n   <w:UseAsianBreakRules\/>\n   <w:DontGrowAutofit\/>\n  <\/w:Compatibility>\n  <w:BrowserLevel>MicrosoftInternetExplorer4<\/w:BrowserLevel>\n <\/w:WordDocument>\n<\/xml><![endif]--><!--[if gte mso 9]><xml>\n <w:LatentStyles DefLockedState=\"false\" LatentStyleCount=\"156\">\n <\/w:LatentStyles>\n<\/xml><![endif]--><style>\n<!--\n \/* Style Definitions *\/\n p.MsoNormal, li.MsoNormal, div.MsoNormal\n\t{mso-style-parent:\"\";\n\tmargin:0cm;\n\tmargin-bottom:.0001pt;\n\tmso-pagination:widow-orphan;\n\tfont-size:12.0pt;\n\tfont-family:\"Times New Roman\";\n\tmso-fareast-font-family:\"Times New Roman\";}\n@page Section1\n\t{size:612.0pt 792.0pt;\n\tmargin:70.85pt 70.85pt 70.85pt 70.85pt;\n\tmso-header-margin:35.4pt;\n\tmso-footer-margin:35.4pt;\n\tmso-paper-source:0;}\ndiv.Section1\n\t{page:Section1;}\n-->\n<\/style><!--[if gte mso 10]>\n<style>\n \/* Style Definitions *\/\n table.MsoNormalTable\n\t{mso-style-name:\"Norm\u00e1l t\u00e1bl\u00e1zat\";\n\tmso-tstyle-rowband-size:0;\n\tmso-tstyle-colband-size:0;\n\tmso-style-noshow:yes;\n\tmso-style-parent:\"\";\n\tmso-padding-alt:0cm 5.4pt 0cm 5.4pt;\n\tmso-para-margin:0cm;\n\tmso-para-margin-bottom:.0001pt;\n\tmso-pagination:widow-orphan;\n\tfont-size:10.0pt;\n\tfont-family:\"Times New Roman\";\n\tmso-ansi-language:#0400;\n\tmso-fareast-language:#0400;\n\tmso-bidi-language:#0400;}\n<\/style>\n<![endif]-->\n\n<p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"text-indent: 35.4pt; font-weight: bold;\"><span style=\"color: rgb(0, 51, 51);\"><span style=\"color: rgb(51, 51, 51);\"><span style=\"font-family: Verdana;\"><\/span><span style=\"font-family: Verdana; font-weight: normal;\"><span style=\"font-family: Times New Roman;\">What is wrong with me? Why am I\nso affected by woes expressed in arts? And why cannot I shed a tear when it\ncomes to my own distresses? Is every little part of me located in someone else,\nso that I am obliged to carry the burden of others? Is my existence fragmented,\nscattered into tiny sentimental pieces dispersed all over the world? Am I\nconnected to every pores, genes, atoms of the reality around me? Then why do I\nstill feel so isolated? As if no one around me is capable of understanding me? As\nif.. they do not even attempt to? Why is the demanding task of squeezing the\nwords out of me left to me, and why do I fail every single time I try to meet\nthe requirements? Do they not care? Am I useful as someone who listens but\nnever as someone who is listened to? And even if somebody does want to hear me\ntalk, why does the act of speaking seem unfeasible, impractical, impossible? Why\nam I keep connecting to everyone but noone gets connection to me? Why is this\none-sided like everything I have ever endured? Why do I lock out everyone? How,\nhow could I break down this shell grown upon me without tearing down my skin? Could..\nanyone.. help me?<\/span><\/span><\/span><\/span><\/p><span style=\"color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Times New Roman;\">\n\n<\/span><p class=\"MsoNormal\"><o:p><span style=\"color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Times New Roman;\">&nbsp;<\/span><\/o:p><\/p><span style=\"color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Times New Roman;\">\n\n<\/span><p class=\"MsoNormal\" style=\"text-align: right;\" align=\"right\"><span style=\"color: rgb(51, 51, 51); font-family: Times New Roman;\">\/2010.06.28. 19:27\/<\/span><\/p>","type":"rich"}